.. so don`t get mad at me! Though I do feel obligated to apologize for my absence during Christmas. I hope you all found someplace else to eat food on Christmas Eve.
Most "why" questions directed toward me ("why didn`t you come home," "why don`t you update your blog," "why don`t you write", "etc.") can be responded to with "because I am an asshole." Yes. That is the answer. Maybe you already knew or assumed this.
All other questions, like "what are you doing these days," "where are you living," or "so when are you actually coming back" can be answered with an exasperated hand-wave and a tired "I don`t even f#$%ing know ..." I have said to myself that this will be a year of decision, no more of this floating-around-in-limbo nonsense, but so far maybe I am off to a bad start. All in due time, though .. I should be moving into an apartment next week, which will be my first legitimate place of residence since something like .. September, and I should be starting a new freelance-style translating job around then as well, just in time I say, because my Japanese is going to shite and I need some practice.
Do I have anything interesting to tell .. let`s see. I witnessed a drive-by mugging on Christmas while I talked to (most of) my family on the phone. I`m being harassed daily by a Filipina transexual. I pretended to get married to a French girl named Geraldine for a modeling shoot. I get made-out with almost nightly by Russian hostess girls while their middle-aged Yakuza boyfriends watch and plot my death. I read "And the Ass Saw the Angel" by Nick Cave. I eat at Freshness Burger almost every day (inexplicably, they have awesome chai). I am rocking the beard again.
Life isn`t bad at all, but I`m still just coasting. I read an interesting quote today:
"Fear of failure is a ticket to mediocrity. If you’re not failing from time to time, you’re not pushing yourself. And if you’re not pushing yourself, you’re coasting."
I was like, "Fack! But that does not necessarily mean that if you ARE failing from time to time, you`re also pushing yourself. You can NOT push yourself and still fail." Maybe I didn`t say that out loud. Anyway, I took it to heart.
Man, 2007 was a weirder year than usual. Maybe I can outdo myself this year. A few more days till I turn 27 -- that`s 3 cubed! What a great number! I have a good feeling about this.
How are all of you?
